Life is short. i've gone through 20 years of my life and i've yet to find my goal in it. Everynight i would spend 10-20 minutes before i sleep to think about what i'll do in the future. I've always wanted to know how my future is like, but i know life has a way to make people look forward to everyday, the power of uncertainty. Keeping everyone in suspense, giving people hope, allowing us to face new challenges and testing us on our skills in reacting to situations. No doubt that future lies on our hands and we certainly have control over it, but we need something more to complete out life, something that we have no control of. The way which God tried to remain annonymous, the presence of concidence, luck, fate, chance. Its all of these that we've been waiting for our entirel life. Hoping these would complete our life, and allow us to have a happily ever after in our very own fairytale.

As we go on in life, we constantly look back to the past. Years ago, i was looking forward to becoming an adult, now that i am, i wish i were a kid. The freedom and power of an adult has been very much envious to kids, but the responsibility and discipline behind the freedom and power are often overlooked. Its hard to forgo the old happy-go-lucky brat and morph to a decisive and responsible man, but i will not stop trying. =)

Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who
loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" ..."I'm the teardrop of the
man who regrets letting a girl go..."

Jus came across this quote "time has a way; of taking back everything you thought you had'" and i thought it was very true and meaningful. Time seems to be robbing us of our possessions. Health, friends, family and even your loved ones, they're all so susceptible to the power of time. Jus yesterday, it appeared on news that 5 out of the 22 who met with the dragonboat accident died. It was lucky that my fren didnt participate in the competition due to some issue, otherwise, i couldnt expect what'll happen. I guess it mus be hard for him to lose 5 frens, nevertheless, i'm glad he didnt go. My dad's health seem to be deteoriating, he's getting thinner and thinner..The check up didnt reflect much except diabetes. To my knowledge, diabetes doesnt make one go thin~ I'm worried bout him, but i dunno how i should show my concern. All i can do is pray for him and hope everything's fine. My sis's also victimised! she's deciding to break up with her bf whom she'd waited for 2 years. She told me she thought true love exists, but she realised as a woman, what is important is her future. She has to find a guy who can provide a stable life for her. Cant blame her for tt mindset, afterall a woman's youth is limited. Time does heal wounds, but i guess it creates more in the process of healing.. The only thing unaffected by time is our memories. In my mind, my grandma will always live, i'll always remember all the best things that happened in my life. If possible, each and every moment....

I'm gonna fly to wallaby soon! I'll be off in exactly 24hours! Feeling quite excited bout it, its my first time goin this far and i guess i'll be wide awake throughout my 7 hours journey admiring the scenery beneath. In comparison to my platoon mates who're goin brunei, i guess i'm much bettter off. They're gonnna suffer a 4 days 3 nights navigation exercise in the forest! Gd luck to them =) Quite alot of things i mus get in australia. Smthin for mama, papa and sis, smthing for my super gd frens! and lots and lots of nogats for everyone! A bottle of balley for myself, a bottle of wine for lik, a kangaroo keychain for mum~ sounds like i'm goin for holiday, but nevertheless, its an army exercise. I have to fire live missiles which cost 150k each. cool huh.. Smthing worries me, how can u get sick now! mus get well soon k.. study hard and get more As!! I'll miss everyone! especially u...

Today's a sad day! I got a cut on my eyelid while i was playing frisbee. My captain's hand hit my eye while he threw the frisbee. Come to think of it, it was terrible. Thanks to the adrenaline in me while i was playing, i didnt feel much pain, but the scene was horrible. The impact caused a cut on my eyelid and blood was like spashing out with my every blink, was really a bloody scene. Was quite traumatised by it, but luckily after washing up its only a small wound. However the MO recommended me to stitch it up to allow the wound to heal faster and not to leave a obvious scar. The stitch is still on me and it definitely don't feel good.. Hope the wound heals properly and dun leave too much of a scar and touchwood if there is, hope it looks like double eyelid. Lol
Every man has a scar and each scar will have its story to tell.. well, mine is stupid though. lol

>Sometimes in your life you might feel lonely. It is that time when you are all by yourself thinking for once in your life that you want to have someone to share your life with. Sometimes you wonder what life would be like to have that special someone again. And sometimes you wonder whether if ever you will find the right person.

>But what is right and what is wrong you wonder. How can you tell when you have met that person? How do you know that it will last? How can you tell that he or she will not change?

>Sometimes when you met that someone, he will change as time goes by. Everyone change you say. But if that somebody is really that someone you have been looking for, One thing should never change and that is his or her love for you.

>You have heard of the famous saying "Through thick and thin" but most couples could not survive that period. You have heard "Love conquers everything" Does it really? In search of love you sometimes get confused between infatuation and true love.

>Infatuation is the thing that will not survive "thick and thin" and neither will it "conquers everything". How then you asked yourself, could you tell the difference.

>Ask yourself, did this someone stick to you no matter what how many of your bad sides have you shown to him or her. Can you call this someone and ask for help or favor and he or she and you will not fear "any" as an answer. Can you rely on this someone no matter what state is he or she in? Be it angry or sad, happy or disappointed. He or she is always willing to hear your problems. Can you look into this someone's eyes and you feel that you understand him or her or suddenly you know what he or she is thinking. There is no need for anyone to speak.

>The list of questions to ask yourself would be endless. The bottomline is to remember that true love is a perfect balance between two people. Its not one sided. Its a perfect harmonious compliments between the two.

>Sometimes, the best way to obtain true love is not to wait for true love to come to you but to search for it. And not by going to everyone and asking "Are you my true love?" but by giving him or her the gift. The gift of love. It is only by giving your love to someone that you will find love lifted to new levels that you never dreamt possible.

>And when you have found your love... it is by giving that you will sustain your relationship.
Never stop giving, ever...

>Sometimes but not all the time, you shouldn't take people for granted for sometimes people are blind and not notice the extraordinary of the ordinary...

>Sometimes life takes a very interesting turn... what you never expect, happens and what you expected, never...

3rd of July, 2007. is the day i spent the most money! i fired a live MILAN missile! it cost 25k. was really excited to be choosen to be the 2 out of 40 ppl in the class to do the live firing. Hopefully things will be as planned and i can go to wallabe in australia to do live firing of SPIKE, which cost 150k! haha. if i manage to get there, that will be the day i spent most money on, cause i wun be firing 1 , but maybe 20 of those SPIKE missiles! =)