Its been awhile since i last blog, guess its bout time to update it since i'm moving on to my next phase of life. I'm officially out of commando unit already, decided to be posted out due to my knee injury. I thought it wasnt really smart to stay in there where i risk a higher chance of aggravating my injury. So now i'm in a new unit, infantry support company. We were propaganda that infantry is a sub standard unit back in our commando camp, but things didnt turn out to be that way. Though in infantry life is slacker and less stressful, it has its own good point. Back then in commando, we were trained so much we hardly have time for fun or relaxation. But in infantry, i got to train by having fun, I guess this is more motivational and effective. Still, my knee is giving me trouble, haiz... wonder when i can recover. Thinking back, i should have rejected that question during my interview. "Do u wanna be a commando?" i said i dun mind. Thats so stupid. By sayin tt, i closed my chance of goin into sispec or ocs, now i'm stuck in infantry. Well, wherever i am, i gotta make the best out of it.

Oh ya! The movie u recommended was great, Music and Lyrics, it was a really touching movie, and the lyrics of the song really really touches one's heart. It may be a typical love story, but somehow i jus think there's more to it. U guys should watch it too! and naruto is back to storyline! Here's a song from the movie " Way Back Into Love"

[Her] I've been living with a shadow over head.
I've been sleeping with a cloud about my bed.
I've been lonely for so long.
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on.

[Him] I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away.
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday.
I've been setting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it throw with out a way back into love. Ooohhhhhoooo.

[Her] I been watching but the stars refuse to shine.
I've been searching but I just dont see the signs.
I know that it's out there, theres gotta be something for my soul somewhere.

[Him] I been looking for someone to shed some light, not somebody just to get me through the night.
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it throw with out a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again.
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for my in the end.
Ooooohhhoooohhhoo ooohhhohooooo hhooohhoooo

[Her] There are moment when I don't know if its real, or if anybody feels the way I feel.
I need insperation,not just another negotiation.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart to you.
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do.
And if you help me to start again.
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.
ooohhhooohhooo ooooohhooo oh oh woaho woaho woahohooo woaho woahohoooo

Finally my BMT phase is over! Now i'm a private! the privilege of being one is that we'll be able to keep our hair! the long lost strand like things on our head! Ok, this sounds really foreign, haha. Anyway after my POP i treated family swensons for dinner! The first official meal i paid with the money i earn, it feels like i've really grown up. No longer a boy, i'm a young adult! It was really nice and heartwarming to have such dinner with my family, though my father did not go as usual. Nevertheless, i cherish the moment very much. Everyone's happy. I do hope things between me and my dad will change for the better! Afterall i dunno why i treat him the way i did.. =x

Do we make choices or choices make us? Sometimes even though we are given the option to choose, we end up having to follow wad is planned for us. Choices do make us in a way. But that does not deem me innocent from being indecisive. I follow wad is planned for me too much, far too much that i have lost my own way of life. I do know that their is a special feeling for u, but i choose to hide it and let nature takes its course. Perharps i made my life to wad it is now, but no doubt i mus be responsible for it. I should shoulder the burden of emptiness and loneliness. May this be time put to good use for deeper thinking. =)