Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who
loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" ..."I'm the teardrop of the
man who regrets letting a girl go..."

Jus came across this quote "time has a way; of taking back everything you thought you had'" and i thought it was very true and meaningful. Time seems to be robbing us of our possessions. Health, friends, family and even your loved ones, they're all so susceptible to the power of time. Jus yesterday, it appeared on news that 5 out of the 22 who met with the dragonboat accident died. It was lucky that my fren didnt participate in the competition due to some issue, otherwise, i couldnt expect what'll happen. I guess it mus be hard for him to lose 5 frens, nevertheless, i'm glad he didnt go. My dad's health seem to be deteoriating, he's getting thinner and thinner..The check up didnt reflect much except diabetes. To my knowledge, diabetes doesnt make one go thin~ I'm worried bout him, but i dunno how i should show my concern. All i can do is pray for him and hope everything's fine. My sis's also victimised! she's deciding to break up with her bf whom she'd waited for 2 years. She told me she thought true love exists, but she realised as a woman, what is important is her future. She has to find a guy who can provide a stable life for her. Cant blame her for tt mindset, afterall a woman's youth is limited. Time does heal wounds, but i guess it creates more in the process of healing.. The only thing unaffected by time is our memories. In my mind, my grandma will always live, i'll always remember all the best things that happened in my life. If possible, each and every moment....

I'm gonna fly to wallaby soon! I'll be off in exactly 24hours! Feeling quite excited bout it, its my first time goin this far and i guess i'll be wide awake throughout my 7 hours journey admiring the scenery beneath. In comparison to my platoon mates who're goin brunei, i guess i'm much bettter off. They're gonnna suffer a 4 days 3 nights navigation exercise in the forest! Gd luck to them =) Quite alot of things i mus get in australia. Smthin for mama, papa and sis, smthing for my super gd frens! and lots and lots of nogats for everyone! A bottle of balley for myself, a bottle of wine for lik, a kangaroo keychain for mum~ sounds like i'm goin for holiday, but nevertheless, its an army exercise. I have to fire live missiles which cost 150k each. cool huh.. Smthing worries me, how can u get sick now! mus get well soon k.. study hard and get more As!! I'll miss everyone! especially u...

Today's a sad day! I got a cut on my eyelid while i was playing frisbee. My captain's hand hit my eye while he threw the frisbee. Come to think of it, it was terrible. Thanks to the adrenaline in me while i was playing, i didnt feel much pain, but the scene was horrible. The impact caused a cut on my eyelid and blood was like spashing out with my every blink, was really a bloody scene. Was quite traumatised by it, but luckily after washing up its only a small wound. However the MO recommended me to stitch it up to allow the wound to heal faster and not to leave a obvious scar. The stitch is still on me and it definitely don't feel good.. Hope the wound heals properly and dun leave too much of a scar and touchwood if there is, hope it looks like double eyelid. Lol
Every man has a scar and each scar will have its story to tell.. well, mine is stupid though. lol

>Sometimes in your life you might feel lonely. It is that time when you are all by yourself thinking for once in your life that you want to have someone to share your life with. Sometimes you wonder what life would be like to have that special someone again. And sometimes you wonder whether if ever you will find the right person.

>But what is right and what is wrong you wonder. How can you tell when you have met that person? How do you know that it will last? How can you tell that he or she will not change?

>Sometimes when you met that someone, he will change as time goes by. Everyone change you say. But if that somebody is really that someone you have been looking for, One thing should never change and that is his or her love for you.

>You have heard of the famous saying "Through thick and thin" but most couples could not survive that period. You have heard "Love conquers everything" Does it really? In search of love you sometimes get confused between infatuation and true love.

>Infatuation is the thing that will not survive "thick and thin" and neither will it "conquers everything". How then you asked yourself, could you tell the difference.

>Ask yourself, did this someone stick to you no matter what how many of your bad sides have you shown to him or her. Can you call this someone and ask for help or favor and he or she and you will not fear "any" as an answer. Can you rely on this someone no matter what state is he or she in? Be it angry or sad, happy or disappointed. He or she is always willing to hear your problems. Can you look into this someone's eyes and you feel that you understand him or her or suddenly you know what he or she is thinking. There is no need for anyone to speak.

>The list of questions to ask yourself would be endless. The bottomline is to remember that true love is a perfect balance between two people. Its not one sided. Its a perfect harmonious compliments between the two.

>Sometimes, the best way to obtain true love is not to wait for true love to come to you but to search for it. And not by going to everyone and asking "Are you my true love?" but by giving him or her the gift. The gift of love. It is only by giving your love to someone that you will find love lifted to new levels that you never dreamt possible.

>And when you have found your love... it is by giving that you will sustain your relationship.
Never stop giving, ever...

>Sometimes but not all the time, you shouldn't take people for granted for sometimes people are blind and not notice the extraordinary of the ordinary...

>Sometimes life takes a very interesting turn... what you never expect, happens and what you expected, never...

3rd of July, 2007. is the day i spent the most money! i fired a live MILAN missile! it cost 25k. was really excited to be choosen to be the 2 out of 40 ppl in the class to do the live firing. Hopefully things will be as planned and i can go to wallabe in australia to do live firing of SPIKE, which cost 150k! haha. if i manage to get there, that will be the day i spent most money on, cause i wun be firing 1 , but maybe 20 of those SPIKE missiles! =)

if its me who can ease ur pain, i would stay and be there for as long as it would be. it really hurts to see u in pain, i would rather be the one goin through it. I understand life has its ups and downs, but i've always wanted u to be happy. most importantly, live life without regret. One may make the wrong choice, but through that, we can stil always learn from it and not to repeat it again. There's always so much i wan to do for u, but it always turn out to how little i have done. To me, u are my dearest, i jus wan u to get the best. i'll always be there for u, like a guadian angel.
an angel who feels ur joy and experience ur sorrow

Tml's fathere's day, i've decided to get my dad a cake! For me, things are jus different, maybe it'll be a normal thing for many others, but its my first time gettin him something. its jus complicated, maybe i shall jus keep this to myself. its jus so ironic, there i am in army tryin to make time fly as fast as possible, then here i am tryin to make time forever. Its always said that time changes everything, maybe i jus need more time, but will he have the time i need? i jus have to be realistic and try harder everytime, til i succeed.
Sometimes when u dun wan something to end, its jus by simply not starting it. deep down i know, we will never end.

Jus went drinking wif few of Th's members last night at the wine company. Was quite fun. Drank some red wine and white wine together, i suppose they cant be drank together. Had a bad tummy ache the whole night after. Still the night was gd, talked bout lots of stuffs, but thx to the army, the topic jus revolves about ns. I thought it was enough to be in camp for 5 days! but after the 5 days, we gonna hear lots of AAR(after action review) from our dear army boys in BMT. Their experience was both hilarious and memorable, my BMT wasnt tt fun. It was jus training, trainin , and more training. Bad memories instead of those nice ones they have. I guess i could have done somthing b4 i got into CDO, regret not doin it. LIfe would be so much different if i were to be posted to BMTc . Well, wads over is over, no point moaning and bitching about the past. maybe the saying is right. when u get use to things, u jus tend to accept it. But the statement seems pessimistic, maybe we should not jus accept things as it is. Afterall, everything has a potential, but to fully untilise its potential or let the potential go to waste will still be determined by us, ourselves.

Guess blogging is goin out of fashion, all my fellow bloggers have left their blogs to rot! Everything need commitment, even a blog, what more a relationship.

As i stood in the centre of a palm with skyscraping fingers
the raindrops fell from the dark empty sky
every drop seems to be a message from up above
empty i stand, overwhelm i am
by the thoughts of the past where days were carefree
i stood empty yearning for the intangible assurance
but the raindrops kept hittin on me from above the almighty palm
pushing me right back into flashes of faint memories
the pearl of fluid within the palm remained solemnly dark
once, the pearl shone brilliantly in glamour
now its trapped in the cover of darkness
to seek refuge from the harsh nature of reality
to allow others to understand the true meaning of brightness
as they witness what is true darkness

Its been awhile since i last blog, guess its bout time to update it since i'm moving on to my next phase of life. I'm officially out of commando unit already, decided to be posted out due to my knee injury. I thought it wasnt really smart to stay in there where i risk a higher chance of aggravating my injury. So now i'm in a new unit, infantry support company. We were propaganda that infantry is a sub standard unit back in our commando camp, but things didnt turn out to be that way. Though in infantry life is slacker and less stressful, it has its own good point. Back then in commando, we were trained so much we hardly have time for fun or relaxation. But in infantry, i got to train by having fun, I guess this is more motivational and effective. Still, my knee is giving me trouble, haiz... wonder when i can recover. Thinking back, i should have rejected that question during my interview. "Do u wanna be a commando?" i said i dun mind. Thats so stupid. By sayin tt, i closed my chance of goin into sispec or ocs, now i'm stuck in infantry. Well, wherever i am, i gotta make the best out of it.

Oh ya! The movie u recommended was great, Music and Lyrics, it was a really touching movie, and the lyrics of the song really really touches one's heart. It may be a typical love story, but somehow i jus think there's more to it. U guys should watch it too! and naruto is back to storyline! Here's a song from the movie " Way Back Into Love"

[Her] I've been living with a shadow over head.
I've been sleeping with a cloud about my bed.
I've been lonely for so long.
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on.

[Him] I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away.
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday.
I've been setting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it throw with out a way back into love. Ooohhhhhoooo.

[Her] I been watching but the stars refuse to shine.
I've been searching but I just dont see the signs.
I know that it's out there, theres gotta be something for my soul somewhere.

[Him] I been looking for someone to shed some light, not somebody just to get me through the night.
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it throw with out a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again.
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for my in the end.
Ooooohhhoooohhhoo ooohhhohooooo hhooohhoooo

[Her] There are moment when I don't know if its real, or if anybody feels the way I feel.
I need insperation,not just another negotiation.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart to you.
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do.
And if you help me to start again.
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.
ooohhhooohhooo ooooohhooo oh oh woaho woaho woahohooo woaho woahohoooo

Finally my BMT phase is over! Now i'm a private! the privilege of being one is that we'll be able to keep our hair! the long lost strand like things on our head! Ok, this sounds really foreign, haha. Anyway after my POP i treated family swensons for dinner! The first official meal i paid with the money i earn, it feels like i've really grown up. No longer a boy, i'm a young adult! It was really nice and heartwarming to have such dinner with my family, though my father did not go as usual. Nevertheless, i cherish the moment very much. Everyone's happy. I do hope things between me and my dad will change for the better! Afterall i dunno why i treat him the way i did.. =x

Do we make choices or choices make us? Sometimes even though we are given the option to choose, we end up having to follow wad is planned for us. Choices do make us in a way. But that does not deem me innocent from being indecisive. I follow wad is planned for me too much, far too much that i have lost my own way of life. I do know that their is a special feeling for u, but i choose to hide it and let nature takes its course. Perharps i made my life to wad it is now, but no doubt i mus be responsible for it. I should shoulder the burden of emptiness and loneliness. May this be time put to good use for deeper thinking. =)

As we grow older i realise people start to become more and more pragmatic and materialistic. Miss those time when we dun need to work jus to earn money. Workin to pass time was really fun. But lik is special case la, he's workin to pass time but it ended up being a commitment for him. Heard he's gonna quit soon, maybe its gd for him in a sense, the pay quite low also. haha. Its when we are older that our expectation of things change, i dunno why, but i am very eager to earn lots of money. Maybe its jus to allow myself to break through from average life. Maybe its jus to prove myself ? But why not when i can allow my family to lead a better life. I would work very hard to achieve my target. And hope luck is on my side. Went to matt's house to stay over last night and we agreed luck is very important in makin it big too. haha. I think when we're older we would prefer to settle down and try to accept things as it is. Dunno why, but i see romance degradation, people no longer go after their true love and strive as hard as they did when they were young. people keep comin in and goin out of our life, only those u spend effort sustainin in, will they truly become ur true friends, true love.

I didnt know watchin tv could be of such joy. i didnt know how comfortable it is to be waiting for a bus. i didnt know seein someone slp could be so pleasant. i didnt know touchin someone's hair could feel so good. i didnt know why ur touch makes me feel loved. i didnt know parting could be so difficult. i didnt know someone who could do this. I know this is impossible, but this is someone i'm holding on to. The simplest of joy is derived from the simplest of things. U made me realise happinese is in simplicity. The greatest barrier to overcome is to be simple.

Finally back from tekong field camp. The only nice thing there is the night sky. The sheer number is overwhelming. Got to learn which is the northern star and the red star. As i admire the stars one night, i saw a shooting star. It appeared and drew a shimmering curve of light across the sky. As sudden as it appeared, it went off within a blink. I closed my eyes and made a wish. For u to be happy, to be happy forever. Reminiscing on the times we had, those short and memorable moments. They were like the shooting star, something beautiful which end within a blink. There were also fire flies there too. Very beautiful in the cover of the night, giving out bright yellow light at an almost harmonious pace. I was impressed when my buddy told me how he started his relationship. It was through the use of fire flies.
I wrote ur name in the sand, saw ur face in the stars, felt ur presence in the breeze..
but where were u to be...........
If there's one think i could hold on, it would be u...

Sometimes i wonder wad life means.. people might think tt life is a journey to finding ur true love. somehow, when ppl find their true love, they start wanting freedom. After they get their freedom, they wan someone to be there for them. isnt this a stupid cycle which doesnt end. of course this doesnt apply to everyone. lyarn claims he prefers to be single, but i doubt he will be la, sooner or later he'll be attached. some are totally loyal to the loved one. others who're attached seem to be working their ass off to keep their girlfren company. i guess i have been through these all these phases, but stil i dun get wad is the meanin to life. i also witnessed so many of my frens puttin their heart and soul to maintain their relationship wif their girlfren, but stil they ended up breakin up. all their hardwork seem to go to waste. maybe it takes many failures to find ur one and only. my fren once told me, its better to be wif someone whom loves u more than u love her. but i guess its hard to let go of the one u truly love.

"True"
I wont talkI wont breatheI wont move till you finally seeThat you belong with meYou might think I dont lookBut deep insideIn the corner of my mindIm attached to youIm weakIts trueCuz im afraid to know the answerDo you want me too?Cuz my heart keeps falling fasterI've waited all my lifeTo cross this lineTo the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIts time to tryAnything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is trueYou dont know what you doEverytime you walk into the roomIm afraid to moveIm weakIts trueIm just scared to know the ending Do you see me too?Do you even know u met me?I've waited all my life to cross this lineTo the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIts time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is trueI know when I go ill be on my way to youThe way thats trueI've waited all my life to cross this lineTo the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIts time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

finally got to book out again! but next week cant come out le. will be confined for 2 weeks! gonna go tekong for my field camp. i jus returned from marsiling field camp only la! and its so xiong. went for 12km route march, and the terrain is like.. 60 degree angled la! wif full battle order of 20kg! almost died.. lol. but i still managed to complete the whole thing ! got this satisfaction. i'm in a dilema to wheather i should stay in commando. being a commando gives the glory, everyonen seems to respect u. but the hard work behind it is tremendous. though it helps us to keep fit ! Our commander said , tough time dun last, tough man do. His talks very motivating la, or is my mind weak and got propaganda by him. haha. but all is not decided til bmt ends. comparing the pros and cons, they seem then same. any suggestions to wheather i should stay in commando after bmt?!

Life in ns is tough!!! everyday 2 physical trainings! then got route march somemore! the bag pack and LBB is like bout 15kg la! and we have to walk 3km wif it. the worst thing is.. our instructor are tellin us, this is jus the beginning. its gonna get tougher as we go. the call this progressive training.. and i already fell sick!! high fever 38.6!! then got to book out. lol. wonder if they gonna make me stay back for it.. =( beauty told me to blog and so i did. u mus blog too k. then we'll get to know how life is for us. guys out there who saw my blog, plz go train up b4 u go in, or else life's gonna be tough for u. all the best man! enjoy ur holiday while u can! haha.. play more! =), i'm still very impressed by wad ur bf acheieved jus at the age of 24. guess i'll have to work harder. much harder! lol.. take care guys!

Weeee... My last post before i go into army!!! To all the TauHuay ppl, thanks for makin my holiday such a wonderful one! so much fun hangin out and playing wif u all! i'll remember the nights! haha. To my felllow dotarians! i'll be back hosting 2 weeks from now! meanwhile, please train up and match my skill level of ksing kills! lol! To my best friend! its been nice running wif u, hope to run wif u again next time! then u can collect more stars! haha.. And to u![who's tt face =) ] i'll miss u everynight! so prepare more tissue cause u gonna sneeze real bad! lol. and lastly to everyone! take care loads!!! miss you guys!!!!