As we grow older i realise people start to become more and more pragmatic and materialistic. Miss those time when we dun need to work jus to earn money. Workin to pass time was really fun. But lik is special case la, he's workin to pass time but it ended up being a commitment for him. Heard he's gonna quit soon, maybe its gd for him in a sense, the pay quite low also. haha. Its when we are older that our expectation of things change, i dunno why, but i am very eager to earn lots of money. Maybe its jus to allow myself to break through from average life. Maybe its jus to prove myself ? But why not when i can allow my family to lead a better life. I would work very hard to achieve my target. And hope luck is on my side. Went to matt's house to stay over last night and we agreed luck is very important in makin it big too. haha. I think when we're older we would prefer to settle down and try to accept things as it is. Dunno why, but i see romance degradation, people no longer go after their true love and strive as hard as they did when they were young. people keep comin in and goin out of our life, only those u spend effort sustainin in, will they truly become ur true friends, true love.

I didnt know watchin tv could be of such joy. i didnt know how comfortable it is to be waiting for a bus. i didnt know seein someone slp could be so pleasant. i didnt know touchin someone's hair could feel so good. i didnt know why ur touch makes me feel loved. i didnt know parting could be so difficult. i didnt know someone who could do this. I know this is impossible, but this is someone i'm holding on to. The simplest of joy is derived from the simplest of things. U made me realise happinese is in simplicity. The greatest barrier to overcome is to be simple.

Finally back from tekong field camp. The only nice thing there is the night sky. The sheer number is overwhelming. Got to learn which is the northern star and the red star. As i admire the stars one night, i saw a shooting star. It appeared and drew a shimmering curve of light across the sky. As sudden as it appeared, it went off within a blink. I closed my eyes and made a wish. For u to be happy, to be happy forever. Reminiscing on the times we had, those short and memorable moments. They were like the shooting star, something beautiful which end within a blink. There were also fire flies there too. Very beautiful in the cover of the night, giving out bright yellow light at an almost harmonious pace. I was impressed when my buddy told me how he started his relationship. It was through the use of fire flies.
I wrote ur name in the sand, saw ur face in the stars, felt ur presence in the breeze..
but where were u to be...........
If there's one think i could hold on, it would be u...

Sometimes i wonder wad life means.. people might think tt life is a journey to finding ur true love. somehow, when ppl find their true love, they start wanting freedom. After they get their freedom, they wan someone to be there for them. isnt this a stupid cycle which doesnt end. of course this doesnt apply to everyone. lyarn claims he prefers to be single, but i doubt he will be la, sooner or later he'll be attached. some are totally loyal to the loved one. others who're attached seem to be working their ass off to keep their girlfren company. i guess i have been through these all these phases, but stil i dun get wad is the meanin to life. i also witnessed so many of my frens puttin their heart and soul to maintain their relationship wif their girlfren, but stil they ended up breakin up. all their hardwork seem to go to waste. maybe it takes many failures to find ur one and only. my fren once told me, its better to be wif someone whom loves u more than u love her. but i guess its hard to let go of the one u truly love.

"True"
I wont talkI wont breatheI wont move till you finally seeThat you belong with meYou might think I dont lookBut deep insideIn the corner of my mindIm attached to youIm weakIts trueCuz im afraid to know the answerDo you want me too?Cuz my heart keeps falling fasterI've waited all my lifeTo cross this lineTo the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIts time to tryAnything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is trueYou dont know what you doEverytime you walk into the roomIm afraid to moveIm weakIts trueIm just scared to know the ending Do you see me too?Do you even know u met me?I've waited all my life to cross this lineTo the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIts time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is trueI know when I go ill be on my way to youThe way thats trueI've waited all my life to cross this lineTo the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIts time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

finally got to book out again! but next week cant come out le. will be confined for 2 weeks! gonna go tekong for my field camp. i jus returned from marsiling field camp only la! and its so xiong. went for 12km route march, and the terrain is like.. 60 degree angled la! wif full battle order of 20kg! almost died.. lol. but i still managed to complete the whole thing ! got this satisfaction. i'm in a dilema to wheather i should stay in commando. being a commando gives the glory, everyonen seems to respect u. but the hard work behind it is tremendous. though it helps us to keep fit ! Our commander said , tough time dun last, tough man do. His talks very motivating la, or is my mind weak and got propaganda by him. haha. but all is not decided til bmt ends. comparing the pros and cons, they seem then same. any suggestions to wheather i should stay in commando after bmt?!